In The Waiting Line

Tonight I tried planned to work on my thesis and plan my law school visits and generally get things accomplished.

But I went and bought my secret P gift and accidentally bought myself a double feature: Garden State and Say Anything. So I watched them both instead of being productive. I'm watching the end of Say Anything right now and I've learned a few things in the years that I've been watching both of these films.

* I need a boy like Lloyd. Seriously. He's probably the most perfect 80's film boy ever. I love how awkward he is about Diane and how he humor her basically the entire movie, when they're talking on the phone, when they're at the party. If more guys humored more girls by just agreeing with what they said the world would be a better place.

* Other movies are not nearly as realistic as these are. Even as I wrote that I thought about how stupid it was. Because movies are never realistic and real life is cinematic sometimes (that is, sometimes things happen that are truly unbelievable). But its the little things in these that make them believable. Like when Lloyd asks Diane if she's there because she needs him or because she needs someone. And then he says, "I don't care." Cause in the real world we rarely hold our moral standards and our ideals. Clearly in a perfect world everyone does everything for the right reasons and in the right way and we all live happily ever after. In my world sometimes I don't care why you came back... I just care that you came back.

* I wish more people were honest like Sam. My friends and I could definitely use a nice dose of honesty sometimes.

* I've basically my entire life fancied myself Diane Court. Except for the awkward relationship with my father, I've just kind of seen myself as being a little separate from the crowds. Which is fine... and possibly a little conceited.

* Zach Braff has the best taste in music ever. Seriously. I could listen to the garden state soundtrack every day.

* People should sacrifice for the ones we love more often. Sometimes love is worth a leap of faith, right? Who needs jobs in California or in Seattle when they could be in New Jersey or England with the person they love more than anyone else in the world? I think we're a generation plagued with the idea of "timing." What does that even mean? If we all sit around waiting for the right time to come along for everything - for crazy life decisions and for love and for the things that create a life... we'll end up looking back when we're old and seeing a lot of waiting and a lot of missed opportunities.

* Planes are awesome for scenes. In books also, which is a little counter-intuiative since nothing is really "happening" in a plane (unless it crashes but, seriously, no one should ever write plane crashing movies). Planes are a great place to consider your life though and to be aware of how small you are and (for me at least) how big God is.

And that's all I got.

In other news... I'm not ready for senior speeches tomorrow night. I thought maybe I would be... but I'm not.


With love,
Shelli